Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Wandering Heart

There's a reason that I chose the title The Wandering Sagittarius for this blog. It's a two part equation, though both sides aren't equal. I'm a Sagittarius, and I've done enough posts to let you know some of the finer details of what exactly the temperament and personality of a Sage is. But that's only part of me. The other part is the wandering part. Is the part of me that doesn't want to be tied down for long. The part of me that wants to wander through this world to see what it holds - and what it doesn't - and then come back and share that because it's made me a different person. Something bigger. Or smaller. The point is that it's changed me.

I'm not going to say I'm fearless. Far from it, actually. I'm scared of a lot of things, most of which you'd probably laugh at me for. I do, on the other hand, have enough courage to put aside my fears and wander through this life with a good pair of sneakers and an open mind. Not to mention a sense of adventure.

I love the girls I live with. Honestly, I do. And I get that they worry a bit, especially when I travel.

I might never come back to the United Kingdom. So while I'm here, I'm going to do everything in my power to see as much and experience as much as I can. If that means that I do things - like taking in an English Premiere League game if I can get tickets - well, you can come with me (in which soccer's not their cup of tea) or you can be behind me and wish me a happy time. I might not have experienced the actual European soccer atmosphere, and yes, I know it's a common game (and honestly, that made me a little angry because I played it for fourteen years) but this is something that I want to do, and something that I have the opportunity to.

Despite what people might think, I'm not a complete dumbass. I know how to travel safely and smartly. The whole reason that I usually walk somewhere with purpose is because to more or less meander around somewhat aimlessly implies that you're lost. If you don't imply that you're lost, ain't nobody going to question whether you really know where you're going or not. If you're going to be totally lost, go with confidence in the direction you think you ought to. Eventually, ask for directions.

I have a wandering heart that beats toward adventure. It knows enough to do what it needs to - always get the job done - but in the end, it's going to want to wander hither and yon. Eventually, it'll wander back.

4 comments:

Connie W said...

I love that you are experiencing as much as you can in the UK.

You only live once!

Molly Louise said...

My thoughts exactly.

Straight Guy said...

I like the determined wanderer concept. You know what you're doing, just not where you're going.

Molly Louise said...

Not a bad way to live, actually. A little scary at times, but so much fun.

"The difference between life and the movies is that a script has to make sense, and life doesn't."

-Joseph L. Mankiewicz